diary of a nobody

Just realised the packets of cigarettes I stupidly bought off some bloke in the pub last night, are nothing more than a pile of fake "probably filled with cyanide and sawdust" load of old rubbish! you see last night I got a bit pis**d and I thought they looked alright, plus I got 40 for £4. Now im sober and have my vision back, I think am so daft someone could have sold me "candy cigarettes" and I wouldn't have known! The funny thing is im normally more than happy to hand over silly amounts of money to the vending machine to fuel my "truly vile habit" .

O.K so I have been away for a while. And my promises of interesting statements are slightly unfounded. Basically Ive just been busy. Mostly working! The reasons Ive actually been getting of my arse and genuinely putting some effort in, as opposed to my usual "I do so many jobs I never get round to doing any of them" crap, Is because of the following.......

1. As i probably already said, former girlfriend hears of my exiting June holiday, realises she actually misses me, and starts emailing me "I wish I was with you in France, we will have to go next year when I come back" etc, etc...

2. Then I start to get daily text conversations. That range from regular chit chat, to late evening for her, lunch time for me "I really miss you, I miss the music we listened to, I miss going off somewhere silly for the day just because we could" etc, etc....

3.Then I mentioned that I'm going to have mini holiday in Rome (her favourite place ever) next month, this resulted in her begging me to not go in September and wait for her return in march ! I was tempted to say how about you not go to Thailand, Cambodia, Australia, and every-other fecking place, you will be going without me!!! but I didn't I just said, don't worry, Rome is not going anywhere we can go anytime, bla, bla, bla.....

4. Then the final nail in the, "I am completely confused as to why this person and I had a fantastic relationship, she buggered off, told me she couldn't continue a relationship when she isn't even here, fails to communicate with me for a month or so, then decides she misses me, but I cant say feck all, for fear of upsetting her trip of a lifetime " coffin .......Is , I send her birthday message, via e-mail, In Gaelic (she is Irish) which was very inventive and very difficult to do (it is almost impossible to translate most concepts directly from english to Irish). And her response to aforementioned birthday message?........................... "I love you"

.........anyway, so I'm working really really hard so that as soon as I can, I will be financially prepared to go off and make sure I get to spend more of my life with the person who I love with all my heart....